Diary of a modern day saint.

2008-12-25T20:09:00.001+08:00

goodbye. relocated to stunsta@lj.

2008-12-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

basically camped out at my grandma's for hari raya the whole day. got some money which would be able to sustain my christmas shoppping and gifts for exchange. hehehehe.

start of a new day.

2008-12-07T13:53:00.002+08:00

i am considering switching to livejournal soon. with the recent flaming of my blog, i realised that it is not wise to blog my personal stuff openly hence i'll intend to lock some of my posts. i feel safer and more secured this way. and as i just recalled, i think the vp read my blog. because during the interview, he asked me whether i wanted to change cca. then i said no. he asked me again, this time with the 'i know you want it' face. the only time i revealed about changing cca is in my blog. hence i think this is quite scary and i seriouuusssly need to start locking my posts man.

nothing much to blog about really. i went out with some of the usuals yesterday. the others just bubbled away. went bugis then town then esplanade. then back home. thats probably it.

i seriously need to find a job man. running out of money really soon. those with contacts please hit me up aite. thanks.

Back here baby

2008-12-05T22:16:00.007+08:00

As you know, i'm already back from mawai. the camp's quite awesome actually. i had a lot of fun with my clique mates. also, a lot of stuff happened. haha. shall update with photos for you to enjoy. nothing much as it was raining all the time thus i was afraid to bring along my camera with me.

this is actually my bed. haha.

ben looking shy in his tight singlet.

smiley face : venus and jupiter on top of the moon.

scenery from top of the mountain.

second scenery from top of the mountain.

me, vern & ben feeling all muddy and wet after the mountain trekking.

thats all folks. loooks boring with the few photos but i assure you that we had a hell of a time there. hahah.

2008-11-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

going to mawai eco camp tmr. not that looking forward to it anyway. i kind of checked out the details of the camp on the net. it turns out to be just like some other leadership training camp. lol. anyway, have fun staying at home for the next four days, especially benedict! hahah. the bugger wanted to go in the end but too late. HAHAH. see ya then. i'll bring back photos and videos to let you see dont worry. till then.

2008-11-30T02:17:00.002+08:00

back from batam yesterday and i literally just dropped dead. went played soccer next day. i cant even match up to 50% of my normal fitness. lol. anyway went to celebrate derek's bday in the evening.

2008-11-23T01:32:00.002+08:00

i've been eating too much lately. these past few days have been like some kind of a food loading phase. joke. if only i could burn back the calories in no time. going for ocip in a few days time and not so looking forward to it except for the shopping. lol. whats there in batam anyway man. i heard the shopping not bad just because of the weak currency thats all. besides that nothing great about that place. after batam i'll be back for a few days then i'm off to mawai eco camp. another joke man. the thought of an eco camp still tickles me. having to go all the way to mawai to plant seeds i think? lol.

good or bad?

2008-11-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

i dont know whether this is good or bad news but i managed to retain after seeing the VP for the interview just now. to me i have some mixed feelings which i shan't talk about. just hope a new year will mean a new experience for me and hence ultimately better results. if not i shall withdraw myself from the college as thats part of the contract.

anyways not in the mood to talk about it goodbye for now.

what a disappointment i've been.

2008-11-07T21:40:00.002+08:00

the results today really literally just tore me apart. it is very hard for me to accept the fact that i am going to get retained at j1 or even have to pursue a poly career course at worst. i just feel that after all i have been through this past year this is not what i deserve. if the rumor that i got retained was due to the fact that they want to make me play rugby for them for another year is true then i'll make sure that cjc gets its retribution that it deserves. because it is really not fair to me to have almost died trying to survive this year and this is what they give back to me. for all i care, if i got promoted also there's a high chance that i won't get good A level results which brings us back to the first point of retaining.

a good lesson that i can bring out of this is that i should not take things for granted and always cherish what is given to you no matter what it is. i really feel that i deserved to be promoted. i'm gonna collapse soon. come save me.

at last and over with it.

2008-11-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

finally my OP for pw is like over. all my efforts i feel have paid off. i was the last guy to conclude my presentation and hence i feel that i must end with some hype since our group doesn't have any 5 min thing or whatsoever. with that i decided to put away my script into my back pocket and damn did it have a huge impact. it boosted my confidence to heights which i never thought i could reach. hahah. it resulted in me being myself and just having much fun bringing my point across to the audience. i felt quite happy as i was able to see some sort of interaction with the audience. and i also managed to answer the questions presented by the examiner reasonably well. with that i end my pw on a quite a good note.

just unlucky.

2008-10-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

these past few days have been the most unluckiest ones i've ever had in my life.
it started with the marathon which stained my clothes with its scent.
next, i watched portsmouth lose while my money is killing me softly.
feeling damn low to the down, i went to sleep.
only to be woken up by my mom the next day screwing me while i'm half-asleep due to the scent on my clothes.
feeling damn shit, i decided to take a breather and hit the gym.
i only realised the number of people that celebrates deepavali when i entered the gym.
the gym was full to the brim. everyone was literally sharing the machines like two or three per machine.
i was damn pissed as i ended up doing nothing. wasted $1.50. luckily i met my cousin inside.
which leads to his idea of running at the stadium. went there and feeling eager to release my frustration.
i ran like a mad dog forgetting that i just had a marathon the day before.
i nearly puked and fainted, surviving only on the thought that i shall not be as weak as swank.
was intending to visit my grandma for a while after gym but had to drag myself home due to my condition.
reached home, bathed then went dead.

tmr's gonna be the day which decides whether i promote or i should take the s paper. i hope i promote as taking a s paper for gp to me is damn lame.

remnants of whats left in me.

2008-10-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

i have never been this scared about taking back my results. i realised that tomorrow determines my life, the path that i will take. i hope i promote, for that will be my emancipation.
if it turns out otherwise, i told myself i will not cry, for i know i did my best. deep down i know i can do better, i'm not that weak.
with every failure, i told myself i will learn from it and grow. for what not kills me makes me stronger.
the wait seemed eternity, an everlasting urge to just end the sorrow. but when the day really comes, i trample in fear for its just typical human genetics.
i hope the wait is worthwhile, for if not i'll just float with the wind that is waiting to embrace me.

for this is my altar ego.the side that defines me for who i am.

what remains here.

2008-09-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

all the more promos is near,
within my heart i'm trampled with fear.
topics by topics i throes to clear,
with results i'm not glad to hear.
day by day i struggle to cope,
while grooving to beats which just seems dope.
sensing that the end is looming near,
all hope's lost as i lay here quiescent,
for thee, i'll await my emancipation to espouse me here.

some scribblings for you all to decipher. pardon me for the deepness. i guess that's just me. holla.

inspire me.

2008-08-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

few days ago during GP lesson, i was so damn bored that i decided to put the skills that i learnt from my pw project to the test. the skill which is relaying a msg through a picture etc. thus i came up with this bullshit which is quite DEEP SIOL. i showed it to my clique 5ive and they stun. hahah. you dont have to read it coz you wont be able to understand what i'm talking about. newaz fasting month is coming soon! yayay. my favourite hobby : diet. hahahah. joking. i aim to lose at least 5 kgs in a month. LOL.

post trauma.

2008-07-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

ptm today was the bombz man. everything that i predicted would happened actually happened. as usual, atittude generally quiet. told ya i'm a shy person. haha. after that came all the complains and the bad results which paved the way of the next thirty minutes. overall it was quite alright.... NOT!

had national commitment yesterday. match against trinity college. there's this guy which looks the same as mark henry! damn big but i managed to bring him down, by tripping him with my body. hhaha. luckily he didnt fall on me or else my abs would be defined by now. hhahaa. played first team. but was sub out after ten minutes bcos i didnt do much. came on in the last quarter. could have scored a try but i fumbled the ball. haiz. it was fun playing with the national team. total score: four tries by each side but trinity won on conversions. unlucky.

gotta get into studying mood now or else it would be goodbye to jc life by the end of the year.

come and save me from all these misery.

EXAMS'S OVER

2008-06-27T02:52:00.002+08:00

its all over. i waited till today as most people finish today. for those who still has papers on friday, good luck. experience tells me that the last paper is the one that kills you. hahah. you know what i mean. lol. exam's over but i still got a lot of work to do. i bet surely get U for all my subjects. disappointed man. haiz.

emancipation!

2008-06-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

YES! the history paper is finally over and done with! i feel free again. hahah.
i'm sure i'll get U. LOL. at the start when i just came to school, when ben and vavat saw my facial expression initially they laughed histerically. when i told them that i didnt study nationalism(which is half the paper), they laughed even more. after the paper when i told them that i wrote my own history for nationalism question which i call it 'underground rebellion', they laughed their asses off. hahahah.

went lunch at far east lvl 5 after paper with my clique 5(ben, vern,iggy,swank,me). LOL. after that we went paradiz center to play LAN. LOL! i dont know whose smart idea(VAVAT!) was it. but we enjoyed ourselves tremendously playing CS and dota. i shall not elaborate on the CS coz you'll end up laughing blood out of your mouth as it was freaking funny. i laughed until my stomach pain and bladder full. LOL! i guess this is the best destressing activity that you could ever do after a history paper. thats only if you bring me and vavat along. hahaha.

exams on monday. i'm screwed to the root. online study session with the clique 5 at 10pm-1am. LOL!

die die die.

2008-06-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

i give up on history. its 1am now. i have h2 history exam later at 8am. status: international hist=done. nationalism=nothing. that means the grade U is within my grasps now. i can feel it coming to me. hahaha. i'm suffering from info overload. i guess i'll be writing my own history for the nationalism section tmr. cant be bothered already. too much info too little time. i'm quite confident that i'm not the only one feeling this way among the history students. hahah.

coming just for nothing.

2008-06-18T02:08:00.002+08:00

it all turned out to be a waste of time. the match against bedok kings was cancelled. i went all the way to saint andrews for nothing. in what was suppose to start at 6.30 become a long wait till 8+ before the match was finally called off. the ref briefed us for so damn freaking long about the new ELV rules that once he wanted to start the match, it was too dark. the wait for the spotlights to be turned on took eternity. in fact, it was never to be turned on. the person that was in charge of the spotlights was m.i.a. thus it was all for nothing.

i dont know, it maybe either a bad thing or a blessing in disguise. who knows.

probably for the best.

2008-06-17T00:28:00.002+08:00

i had national training today. as usual, stunsta was late. haha. i was lucky not to get screwed by the coach. to make things worse, my cjc coach, malcolm, was there also. i was so embarassed as he look at my face and gave me that look of a joker. hahha. basically we trained for tmr's match against bedok kings under20. i dropped a lot of balls today particularly due to the fact that i'm so tired. i had to run and outrun all the time. i will probably play first team tmr as a number of the boys are playing for the mastercard under20 tmr which leaves me nervous and scared as i have not played against a club oficially except for the one against northern knights. lol. the team's looking great so lets kick some bedok ass! hahah.

on a deeper thought. i feel the air of love within me after quite a considerable absence. not to exactly love someone, but the action of liking someone that catches your attention even though its at the very corner of your eyes. such an intricate feeling that captures your imagination. even a simple act will have you gasping for air. i won't say its love, but probably the spark that might lead to the initiation the of love. fret not, its just a feeling and its all up to fate to decide whether i will go for it. (i might have potential to become a writer. LOL!)

fated or just pixelated??

2008-06-15T13:30:00.002+08:00

my horoscope says someone you thought you knew inside and out will surprise you today. enjoy it.
i'm waiting whoever that person is!! i hope its a girl. LOL. see ya.

mid years

2008-06-15T02:38:00.002+08:00

oh ma gad. mid years is in a couple days' time and i'm still unprepared to the mxm man. my revision status is like 1.2 to the power of 3%. i'm so so dead. and with my busy schedule next week and my history exam that starts on a freaking saturday, god bless stunsta. i hope my mid years will not be too bad and i'm not the last in class. haha. i think i'm gonna try and burn all the notes and drink them the day before the exams. lol. i heard it worked for some people. hahaa. with that, adios amigos.

spurts of satisfaction.

2008-06-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO! I got into the national team sia.though i think i'm gonna end up in the reserves. lol. i was scared at first as my name was the last few to be called out. I was relieved and sad at the same time when my name was called. i was relieved as my weeks of hard work coming down for the games had paid off. but i'm sad at the same time as the national team schedule gonna take up a lot of my time. already now i'm so far behind in my studies that i'm sure that my mid years is just skrewd. i will have to learn to juggle all this time management thingy and hopefully all will go well. hopefully.

( to benedict : i wore the new boots for the trials today. lol.)

birthday bash!

2008-06-11T01:44:00.009+08:00

as you know, i celebrated my bday today with the kapamons! + ben, guava(vern) and ebi(iggy). hahaha. it was one of my most memorable bday celebrations. i also had my pre-bday celebration with the usuals on sunday. it was an enriching experience for me.

many thanks to: -the usuals for buying me the 'S' for stunsta cap. (stussy siol hahah)
-tungsylneh for making me the wonderful photo frame collage.(its beautiful!)

-kyle, jared, lyanne +?? for the 'STUNSTA' trucker cap with the two kinky badges.haha

-sandra, siyi, oxy, whang for the topman gift card. :) (very much appreciated hahaha)

-benedict, benjamin, vern, iggy, julian for the awesome boots. (much needed lol!)

(pardon me if i miss out anyone coz its quite late now and i'm very sleepy zzz)

its been a wonderful experience with you guys and i hope we can still remain in this family for the years to come. cheers!

my celebration with the usuals

bday boy taking a picture!

me with lyanne.

a girls only picture.

the first failed group photo.(cannot see some people)

the so called better photo.

a cooling down photoshot.

these are the photos that i could get my hands on at the moment. shall update if there's more.

good news=bad news

2008-06-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

i have some good news and bad news. lets start it off with the good news. i actually completed the combined schools trials. that means i'm only one step away from the national team. the national team trials is on this wednesday 4.30pm at Raffles Institution. this is followed by a combined schools match on thursday and national training on friday. sounds fun but it will make some people unhappy.

That means i will not be able to make it for derek's cage soccer on wednesday and lyanne's farewell thingy on friday. sorry lyanne. i will try my best to make it okay. i already prepared your farewell gift. dont worry. hahha.

oh my oh my.

2008-06-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

i'm supposed to be packing for my camp but colbie caillat's realize made me change my mind. here i am blogging bcoz i can't be bothered to pack my stuff. and with my left thumb still swollen i'm really not looking forward to this leadership training camp. the fact that its at dairy farm made it totally worse. i'm just so tired.

went sentosa in the morning. i reached there earliest at 8.30. first time in my life that i'm early. just a usuals boys outing to the beach to have fun and tie up loose ends. quite some time since we saw each other. i think i got burned a bit. i would not have been burned if that pige came. coz he would surely bring sunblock with him. only i and him among the usuals believe in the sunblock thingy while the other think that its unmanly. i left at 12.30+ to bathe and left sentosa in a cab at 1+. reached hometeam NS at 1.40 for my dance lesson. lol. only left with 20 mins for the lesson. we transferred from the studio to the indoor basketball court after our time was over. spent 1 hr or so there. i felt quite happy as i can tell that i have improved. but i still suck overall. i can only do the toprock, downrock and some basic stuff. my powermoves totally suck. my handspin cannot even spin as fast as its supposed to be. besides that, all other powermoves are not within my reach at the moment.

lets just get this camp over and done with so that i can carry on with the other tasks that i'm supposed to do. cizo.

holy molly skids on phoney!

2008-05-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

i just can't believe that i survived the combined schools trials today! it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. in fact it was great. i was given the freedom of the backline and it proved to be fun. there was supposed to be a fifteen-a-side match but since some didn't turn up then we played tens. it was more tiring then fifteens man. must keep running non-stop. but it was fun. as always i was the kicker. haha. my team eventually lost but it doesn't matter as the experience gained from the match was more important than the result. the fun part came after the match when we had training for the upcoming triangular championship. basically it means the combined-polytechnic, combined-ite and combined-jc teams will come together to fight for the championship. from there, thirty people will be shortlisted for the national team that will tour darwin. i played as outcenter and it was fun man. i played first team and the whole backline can speak malay i think except one winger keith. so basically we communicated in malay.haha. it was fun playing with them as our skill level was to the mark thus we were able to try complicated moves instead of the freaking hands that i always did in cjc. haha. after a while, the coach ask me and nabhan to take a rest so that he can try the other players. hansel plays the same position as me! haha. we're the only two cjc people there yet we are fighting for the same position. lol. actually i can play flyhalf but i don't want as its too stressful and my passing is not that awesome also. next week there's training again wth. boo.

today marks the start of the holidays but it doesn't seem like the holidays too me as i'm probably occupied the whole holidays with activities. haiz. somemore, my feaking history exam starts during the holidays and it falls on saturday! first time i'm doing an exam during the weekend. what kind of screwed up shit is this.

at last.

2008-05-20T21:39:00.002+08:00

Upon much anticipation, the rugby update for the plate finals at redsports is finally up. My wait is not for nothing as the post had two pictures with me in it. haha. go take a look at it guys! but the sad thing is, the late update has brought some sort of media frenzy at the comments section due to an impatient jjcian which flamed the person who gave the late update. In response, the guy who got flamed made another post just to address this problem and in the end, the jjcian got flamed back like 100 to 1000 times worse than what he got. lol. so much tussle and bustle over a freaking plate final.

Nonetheless, there is a need now to take a check back into reality. And with the first paper for mid years coming on thursday, i have a feeling that i will screw the mid years up mine man. need to get into serious study mode which i simply can't because of reasons which i myself cannot figure out. I'll try my best to persevere and salvage whatever i can before eventually having to face judgment day itself. Whoosah...

artsy frenzy.

2008-05-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

went to two photo exhibitions today with my pw group. the first was at winsland house II while the other was at cathay picture gallery. in what was suppose to be a fruitful visit, i only managed to get a single photo for the eom and chances are i may not get to use the photo as it has copyright claims on it. the first exhibition was alright, having to see some interesting photos of the world around us. the second exhibition was totally bullcrap. it turned out to be a full birds photo exhibition where all the photos taken are of birds. as if i've not seen enough of birds everyday. haha. nonetheless it was a concise effort to gather information for our pw project thus it was worth commending.

i have some things in mind. since i started saving money from a month ago, i somewhat have a wishlist which contains the things that i want to buy. the problem is, i don't know what to buy first. the list comprise of supplements, shirts, shoes, shorts, and a pair of jeans. i can't remember the rest. i guess i'll just save until 1k then buy everything at one shot. hahaha. sounds fun. thats all for now.

first dose of the vivid reality.

2008-05-16T22:24:00.002+08:00

Today was a very important day for me as it marked the first game played together with the new J1 team. I was captain for the day and it felt good. we were against republic poly at their home ground. journey there was long but upon reaching the destination, we were astonished with the beauty of the polytechnic, a far cry from what cjc is. the field was astro-turf thus i wore spandex to cover every part of my leg. i was shocked to see some of my friends in the rp team. they had two national players and a side that was under 20 years of age. all we had was a fresh and raw J1 team that were ready to be battered into shape. the cj team embraced themselves for what would be a 'meaningful lesson'. with the new j1s playing, we got moped 43-0. it could be 43-3 if my penalty went in. as we were already beyond reach of catching up, we received a penalty few metres off the halfway line and i decided to go for the kick. it was ambitious but it almost went in. the ball hung in the air for close to four seconds and it strayed just below the horizontal pole. the guy that caught the ball stunned there for a while as he couldn't see whether the kick went in and when he saw a guy running at him at full speed and the ref not blowing the ball, he turned around and grounded the ball. it was a scrum at the five metre line. sadly, we lost that scrum and gone are the hopes of a try. besides that, nothing much in the game to talk about.

Anyway, that aside. i just received my schedule for the U-18 thingy. its held at RI over a few days. part of me wants to get selected so bad while the other part of me knows that if i get selected i will just put my body for an ass whopping by the ang mohs in Darwin and i surely will have problems managing my studies. for now lets just put it aside and enjoy whats left of today.

A new era.

2008-05-15T21:47:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the first training that the j1s trained together without the seniors. As it is, i'm happy with the turnout for the first training. there were like thirty plus number of people that came. i was shocked to see that there were sixteen backs. first time i see that amount of backs. usually it will be like ten or eleven for the previous batch. i see some potential in the team for next year. this year we have a pretty big backline and as usual i'm probably one of the smallest back. there is also depth in the backline. On the other hand, the forwards only have like 10 or 12 people. Where actually forwards should have like two teams so that there is some spirit of competitiveness in them to fight for the first team and thus it will raise their standard. However, today's training was quite pathetic. Only a handful turned up. i was given the task to teach the backs how to tackle. it was quite funny considering the fact that my tackling is not that great either. i just taught them what i knew and left everything else to hansel aka kamikaze guy. its quite boring considering the fact that i'll be doing this for the next few months and not be honing my skills. i guess sacrifice its what's needed now for the team to improve.

Today in ethics lesson, ms tan was showing some local movie which was a part of a compilation movie series. then she went out to conduct the one to one heart to heart talk with the classmates. while she was still outside, the movie finished early and it went back to its home page where you could access the other movies in the series. without her consent, swank went and opened a short cartoon movie which was quite retarded. then suddenly there was one scene where the couple was making love on the bed, riding each other while the guy talked on the phone. everyone ended bursting into laughter as it was so random. when the movie finished, swank when to scroll the other movies and saw one that looked like it had explicit content. after he opened it, the intro was quite boring as they were scolding and cursing each other in chinese. then swank went to fast forward to the part where the couple was lying on the mattress with the woman not wearing pants except her panties. everyone burst out laughing again. the guy tried to talk the girl in having sex with him and when the girl refuse, the guy tried to force his way and it ended up with both of them rolling on the mattress and the guy started smacking the girl's butt continuously and it cracked everyone up. at that point, ms tan came in and everyone stunned a while before bursting into shots of laughter. she gave us that cheeky face before continuing with her lessons. lol.

Mid years is coming in a week and my preparations isn't that great at all. i guess i need to buck up now or else it will just be a farewell to the mid years. which is important as it accounted 20% for the promos which i think i will screw up. other than that, jc life has been great for me as i have great teachers, great classmates and great friends to make my life in cjc a meaningful one.

surprise surprise

2008-05-12T22:45:00.002+08:00

today was the prize presentation for rugby. i asked mark to announce the top scorer but he didn't want to for the fact that i beat him to it. haha. but the shocker of the day was when bro. paul announced that certain students are selected for the u-18 combined school trials and there's two j1 students selected. i was like whose that two lucky buggers ha. then when he said my name first, i was shocked to the wits of my skull. i went silent for a while. why in the world did they choose me. bro. paul announced my name to the whole school, that made me quite embarrassed for the whole day as people were giving different looks to me throughout the day. my rugger friends were telling me " you better don't think of joining soccer now." i just smiled sheepishly. my dreams of joining soccer is shattered since hopes are pinned on me to bring the rugby team to greater heights. haiz.

anyway, just now i went to watch ruby cup finals with vavat. met ox and sandra there. saw moses too. and also some of the sji people who went sa. it was quite a sad case as st. andrew's got ripped their guts out by acs with a score of 21-8. i had the feeling that sa was going to lose right from the first whistle when the acs kickoff bounced like a million times bcos no one was catching it. it wasn't the exciting match that it was supposed to be as acs dominated the game. only if they were not so imbalanced. actually sa coud have taken them on i think. In my opinion, the drifters shit that the sa backline was doing wasn't actually effective as the standoff was meant to run flat that means no ground gained. on the other hand, acs backline's normal hands move was doing the damage as they manage to suck their man like a vacuum. their switches also show that the basics still owns. not that the drifters suck, its just that the second drifter receiver couldn't even break through the line the standoff was initially in.i strongly feel that sa would have been a stronger force if they had stick to their famous dsp combo.

not to worry, next year its cj's turn to own. if only we manage to dsa the new j1s in. haha.

Update.

2008-05-11T23:56:00.003+08:00

i just ended my rugby season on a high. CJC are plate CHAMPIONS! haha.
even though plate are like fifth in the nationals, who cares. the top four teams are impossible to beat. rjc, acsi, acjc & sajc are like in their league of their own. even better news. my rugby teacher, mr fu, nominated me for the ltc thing in june which means i'm a likely candidate for captain next year.hahaha. if mr nathan, coach teo or my ruggers from sji hears this, they will surely laugh their asses off. bcos i've always been known to be a slacker rugger, even though my coach told me i have the most potential in the team. and one more thing. i'm cj's topscorer! HAHA. 30+ points i think. did not keep track of it. on another note, just when i thought that i could take a rest from rugby and hit the gym like always do a year ago, i'm told that training will resume as per normal as there's still some competition coming up for j1s. which means don't even dream of winning the upcoming competitions as the j1 team i think , either cannot even make up a full team of fifteen aside, maybe just nice for ten, or their technical skills still needs months of training. Anyways, i'll like to thank the people which came to support me. My classmates iron-ben, iggy, vern. And especially the Kapamons!! (ben, jared, kyle, whang, sandra, ox)
special mention goes out to sandra and ox for coming all the way from SA to support me. i bet it was worthwhile. hahha. pardon me if i miss out anyone. coz they are a lot of people that day.

that aside, life in cjc is a pleasure to be a part of. its just the education part that is a handful to handle. with that, i end my post on a high note.

Help Needed!!

2008-03-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

i realise that my blog is almost good as dead.
someone kind enough to help me revamp my blog please leave me a comment or something.
i kinda suck at all this blog and stuff. thank you. signing out...

updatez/

2008-02-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

not been blogging for a while. so shall update about my current status now.
i got in to CJC! hahahahaha.
hard to believe but its true. its sudden i know. made friends there in an instant. haha.
got into 1T05. they gave me MEH combi with phy as H1. haiiz. i have a feeling i'll do badly. aiya.
the history is the killer man. must mug and take down notes like siao.
i'll like to say thanks to the entire rugby team for writing a petition and seeing bro. paul to accept me. haha. and thanks to the two rugby teachers for writing me a recommendation letter and pushing my appeal. i feel quite bad for the other people which got better results than me but did not get in. i guess its all down to lady luck. till next time. cya.

i just got punk'd as in seriously.

2008-02-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

all thanks to the mofo chang. in case you dont know who he is, thats my form teacher. i've been enjoying life ponning school for four days straight before that mofo called my mum just now. what a spoil sport. cant he just let me pon for one week straight before calling my mum? lol.

28 things most girls don't know

2008-02-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

i found this interesting so i decided to post it. ya.

--Guys hate sluts even though
they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
they're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

remniscence from the past. haha.

Pictures.

2008-02-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

sentosa! three musketeers. lol.
me adding the final touches. haha.
me with miss photographer. lol.
tau pok! or mango or papaya. watever you call it.

courtesy of lyanne. thenext-episode.blogspot

oh well.

2008-02-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

kap&co at its best. lol

me and tung running into the pool. haha.

havent been blogging for some time already. okay. so wats have been happening lately.
O levels. wat a relief. i almost didnt make it. but my points dont qualify me to any good jcs so must appeal. i dont mind being posted to any jc. but given the choice, i would try and appeal to a reasonable jc.

Millenia institute. my current school now. i dont know whether it can be classified as a jc or poly.
it offers A levels and diploma but the pace they teach is in comparison to my handstand walk walk.
LOL. it has been quite okay being in MI coz i dont have to be cooped up at home. anyways i failed my chem test. the news came from ben also known as benny aj. LOL. i just cant believe it. the only subject which i'm enthu about. haiz. on the other note, i pon school for two days straight now. haha. just cant be bothered anymore. haha. MI is like a prison school man. camera's everywhere. makes me feel so insecured. the staff there comprises of MOs and FOs. so to make it short, i just call them MOFOs. hahah. they are some good teachers there however. such as my chem and mt teacher. they rock>
i went cjc on friday for rugby training. yeah! i hope to be able to appeal they man. its so different from MI. in MI i still dont know most of the people there after all this while. but just after i stepped into cjc, i already met some people i know. its a lot worse on the canteen. i'm saying hi to literally people i dont know. lol. they are so friendly. i really cant wait to be part of the community if i can. its like a second sji. ora et labora!
the rugby training. it was raining heavily so my friend glenn he brought me to slack a while. it turns out that i spend the next one hour or so playing cards in some people's classroom. i think its marissa's and rahim's class if i'm not wrong. its like open to any teachers walking by but i found out that the teacher's dont mind actually. lol. after that went to gym and met most of the ruggers. mark v. the captain. wat a joke. sji captain and now cj captain also. i guess thats wat niggas are good at. hahha. spent some time in the gym doing weights and watching some ruggers carry ultra heavy weights. hardcore sia. oh ya. i signed in using micheal krygsmen's name. lol. 1t16. hahah. told him later and he was furious. haha. after the rain subsided we went to the quadrangle for some touch rugby. turns out that that was the training. lol. the coach didnt come coz it was raining. i played well i think. scored a try. yeah.
so now. my focus. studies, rugby, breakdance, gym- must get my fitness back!!!, girlfriend?? lol. i'll consider if i get lucky. haha. have been hanging out with kap&co. without youu all, my life is very lonely and dull. sounds emo. lol.

the end is near.

2008-01-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

tick tock goes the clock. and its three days before O's results are released. I'm very scared. I'm not confident of getting below 20 but i'll just keep my fingers crossed. i want to go to a jc if i can make it. lets just see how when the time comes. haiz. tension.

on the another note, i'm feeling lonely personally. not that i dont have friends. i have plenty of them. i just feel un-loved. thats all. it may seem ridiculous but yeah thats what i'm feeling. especially when i need that very someone right now at this point of time. haiz. i guess this is just how life is. cruel as it can be. i'm out.

YES!

2008-01-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

i got streamed to science!! damn happy sia. initially i was in arts but i just put science in the options form then i got it. haaha. i'm taking physics chem math gp mt. lol. and i'm in the same class as swong and ben!! damn tyco. just started learning today. it was very slack. the period was like 40 mins each and there was two breaks of 40 mins each. haha. this is wat i call school man. lol.

MI bananza

2008-01-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

after one whole day of tiring fun activities. LOl.

welcome to the real world rudy

2007-12-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

As i spend more time with you, i finally realise and understand why we broke up. i wont blog it coz its personal like hell and it may hurt. only my best of friends will know and if you wanna know, ask me yourself. for now, back to my isolation. god bless.

crink to the crank

2007-12-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

today's the first time that i actually lived to the name of my job as a mover. haha. i practically became a general worker for the day and did all the labour work such as moving all the heavy goods and stuff. i didnt peel a single carton at all coz today there were too many goods that came to the warehouse thus i was instructed to help out. it was fun! this is hundred times better than peeling cartons man. i get to have fun while working. yeah yeah.

minutes before midnight

2007-12-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

its minutes before my supposedly anniversary. happy anniversary to you. even though your heart maybe with someone else now. it took me great pains to find out this date from you when i forgotten it so i hope its worth it. your phone's dead so i wont bother msging you. ya.

christmas fever

2007-12-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

haiz. i cant believe that i actually spent 200+ dollars just on shopping on saturday. Lucky i didnt decide to buy a shoe or else i would have been broke. Thanks to my part time job, i can at least recoup some losses. but, i do feel like buying a pair of shoes. haha. this holiday have been a money sucking one for me. i would have been rich if i have saved all my money. lol. anyway, i still have christmas eve to shop. better earn as much as i can as i've got a long shopping list. hahha. for now, lets just relax and smoke weed everyday. LOL.

biatch.

2007-12-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

well, i must say this few days i have been feeling lonely, down and out. i wont bother saying more coz it will all sound something like*&^%$# # $%^&* ^&%$## ***# #^%^&&*&@#$%^. ya.

wat the joke!

2007-12-13T20:58:00.001+08:00

i cant believe it! i'm posted to millenia institute! but the funny thing is, i'm posted to the arts stream. haiz. i bet that i'm gonna be one of the few boys on that stream. :(
i told my mum that i must report in my sji uniform. she said she might have thrown the uniform away. haha. wat am i suppose to wear.

anyway, i've got gd news. i can work again!! :D
starting on monday. lol. last chance to earn money before school starts. yay.

shock to the socks

2007-12-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

i'm now jobless!!!!!! for wat particular reason it is which i dont quite understand. haha.
can be that there's no more cartons for me to peel or i must have done something wrong. haiz. haven't even one month of work that means no more income!!! i just thought of doing some shopping but now i have to reconsider for better options. -_-

dizzy dazzle

2007-12-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

my mind is in a daze. too many things have happened too quickly for me.
my work, my love life, my studies and my passion. these very issues make my head go round.
my work has been okay. the pay's good but the side effects is bluueks. the flesh in my nails have gone numb and its painful everytime i press my fingers against somthing. its money's worth i guess. i havent exactly figured out wat i'm going to pursue in my studies. poly or jc. i guess i'll just go the first month if i get in and see how. bodybuilding has always been my passion but now, with breakdancing in my life its hard to juggle this two activities. i guess i'll lessen my gym and more breakdancing. banzai!
i dont know whether i should ever trust girls again after wat they have done to me. i guess its just not worth giving my trust to them. i think i'm going to stay away from girls unless they approach me. *hint hint* for now. i still need time to recover from the aftermath of wats that happened to me. it all just occured to fast. i wish i could rewind back the time and enjoy the great moments again. i miss you.

laying the roots for the foundation

2007-12-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

today is the start of a new era for me.
firstly, i'm gonna join a crew soon. maybe coz its not confirmed.
i got my role today. i'm going to be a style mover. that means i'm more of a dancer than braker. lol.
secondly, i'm not angry with youknowho anymore thus my mind is at ease now. :)

emancipation of rudy!!

filial piety

2007-12-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

Guess whose back. me, myself and i.

i thought that it would be good to blog during the holidays to keep improving my english for watever i'm going to pursue later in life. Also, they are things that i need to share with people but i dont have the cheek to do it. thus, i blog as an alternative. PS: i use my own kind of grammer so pardon me if u can understand some words.

These past few days have been have been the most treacherous ones for me. I thought that by going out till late everyday i can run away from my problems that i'm facing. but, i was wrong. the problems come haunting me at night when i'm going sleep. thus, i've been having sleepless nights these past two weeks thinking about what i've done all this while and wat people have done towards me.i realise that whatever i do, people dont quite remember it except for the funny ones.
But in return they expect me to remember everything that they have done for me.
i ask my friends this very question and i get the same answer. wat an unfair world. like the saying goes " unfair go funfair la." haha.

Lets have a reality check. i'm 16 going 17, just turn single and confused. i have money but dont know wat to buy, ipod touch, psp slim, go shopping or erhem erhem? Please drop me your comments.

2007-04-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

I Quit Blogging.

Sorry for the inconvinience caused. MvP™

2007-04-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

Dont look no further, baby i'm back here! I'm here to cater to you.
Tell me anything you want me to do i'll do it.

Dont stress yourself okay? :)

2007-04-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

when i'm with somebody, all i think about is you.
when i'm alone thats what i wanna do.
is it wrong for me to feel this way, you're running through my mind all day, can you feel me?
i have been trying to get you off my mind, but i can't after all this time, thats what kills me.
i remember everything that we talked about.
if i could turn back the hands of time and correct all my mistakes,
but now i guess i got to move on.
its hard and i'm still loving you till this day.
tears.peace.

2007-04-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

Charity week is coming to a close and the food donations had stopped. Well, this calls for a celebration! I'll explain more about this later on..

For the first time this term, i actually came late for school. Haiz. Must serve detention but who cares. I'm not going until the head of level forces me. As i was walking to my class, i can see that a lot of students were at my classroom. I'm like what the hell are these idiots doing in there? Then what i saw brought a smile unto my face. There were putting all the food donations in my classroom for storage. Of all classes to choose the school chose my class. What a "smart" decison. My classmates were rejoicing over this happy occasion. One of my classmates took reservations of the items that we wanted for "later" so that everything can go as orderly as possible. Haha.

The bell rung and it marks the start of the so-called "party". Only invited guests are allowed. We locked the doors and closed all the windows. Then started the free for all eat all you can buffet. We ransacked through all donations and ate what we wanted. It was a fun and exciting experience getting to share the "charitable" atmosphere with your classmates through a meal. I made sure that we did not take too much food so that to avoid suspicion. We packed some into our bags for souveniers. There goes my whole recess. Lol.

Supervise study today was fun as i left at 3.30pm for rugby training. I spent the quiet time doing a self-reflection. I would like to apologise to my dear for not being able to give her that support as a boyfriend. In times i made her feel sad and hurt and i'm deeply sorry. May i be able to pay for my mistakes one step at a time and hopefully be the boyfriend that you wanted.

2007-04-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

Today was the first time i went for supervise study. What a joke! Why of all teachers it had to be my most "favourite" teacher, Mr Chen that is my chemistry teacher, on duty today. It was facinating as the way he talk english brought joy to the world. Lol. I purposely brought my chem guide book onli as i did not want to use his textbook(If you all want to know the author of chemistry matters is my teacher). Haha.

I was studying diligently when here comes BeneDict. He came late as he got some remedial. I look at his face and i know that he's up to no good. That's when he started chanting two girls' names to me some sort like a mantra. I knew that was coming. Haha.

From then on, there goes my concentration. We talked and joked and did everything else except studying. The aircon was blowing right smack infront of my face and it was freezing me out. Amidst all the action, there was this inner me that kept thinking about my dear. How i miss her. Hope to meet her soon. :) Our teacher released us early because he know that we were just slacking and wasting time. Haiz. Is this what that's gonna happen in my next supervise study sessions? There's only one way to find out... Sekian. Terima Kasih. :)

2007-04-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

Something for you to laugh at during the april fools mood.

Me and my fractured hand. Haha. :)

2007-04-01T14:09:00.000+08:00

Awkward as it seems, I'm actually writing a post. Never had it crossed my mind that i would be blogging. Seeing other people having their freedom of speech makes me want to have mine too. This seems to be one of the stepping stones to the opening up of myself to others. This emancipation that embraces my confidence gives me the courage to voice out my opinions and thoughts which in the past i would never ever do.

Upon the series of events that went by this whole week, it struck me to take a step back and stop time. It made me want to reflect about my life and what i have been doing all this while. Things are happening so fast that I actually fear for the future. Looking back at what I have done all this while makes me realise that I have been wasting too much time and should get down to some serious business. I am slowly feeling the heat of the "O" levels fever. My studies are like so below the expected standard of my school. I hope that the supervise study that starts next week will help me pick up the momentum to hit the mid year exam and slowly prelims and finally the "O" levels. With my classmates in the supervise study programme, I hope it will give me motivation to study and not to bring havoc and chaos to the libarary. Lol.

I also realise the change that is happening to me this very moment. Now, I am more calm and patient. I have dropped the si bei song character and approach and adopted a softer, straight but firmer side. You will probably see my enemies rejoicing but who cares because this is my last year in the school and I am sick of all this shit. My friends will probably be happy of my progress and support me in my attitude change. Banzai!

Well, all of these will not be possible if not for my dear :) Your guidance and support have given me hope to strive for the best!

Hugs and kisses and love you always! :)