going to mawai eco camp tmr. not that looking forward to it anyway. i kind of checked out the details of the camp on the net. it turns out to be just like some other leadership training camp. lol. anyway, have fun staying at home for the next four days, especially benedict! hahah. the bugger wanted to go in the end but too late. HAHAH. see ya then.  i'll bring back photos and videos to let you see dont worry. till then.

back from batam yesterday and i literally just dropped dead. went played soccer next day. i cant even match up to 50% of my normal fitness. lol. anyway went to celebrate derek's bday in the evening. 

i've been eating too much lately. these past few days have been like some kind of a food loading phase. joke. if only i could burn back the calories in no time. going for ocip in a few days time and not so looking forward to it except for the shopping. lol. whats there in batam anyway man. i heard the shopping not bad just because of the weak currency thats all. besides that nothing great about that place. after batam i'll be back for a few days then i'm off to mawai eco camp. another joke man. the thought of an eco camp still tickles me. having to go all the way to mawai to plant seeds i think? lol. 

good or bad?

i dont know whether this is good or bad news but i managed to retain after seeing the VP for the interview just now. to me i have some mixed feelings which i shan't talk about. just hope a new year will mean a new experience for me and hence ultimately better results. if not i shall withdraw myself from the college as thats part of the contract.

anyways not in the mood to talk about it goodbye for now.

what a disappointment i've been.

the results today really literally just tore me apart. it is very hard for me to accept the fact that i am going to get retained  at j1 or even have to pursue a poly career course at worst. i just feel that after all i have been through this past year this is not what i deserve. if the rumor that i got retained was due to the fact that they want to make me play rugby for them for another year is true then i'll make sure that cjc gets its retribution that it deserves. because it is really not fair to me to have almost died trying to survive this year and this is what they give back to me. for all i care, if i got promoted also there's a high chance that i won't get good A level results which brings us back to the first point of retaining.

a good lesson that i can bring out of this is that i should not take things for granted and always cherish what is given to you no matter what it is. i really feel that i deserved to be promoted. i'm gonna collapse soon. come save me.

at last and over with it.

finally my OP for pw is like over. all my efforts i feel have paid off. i was the last guy to conclude my presentation and hence i feel that i must end with some hype since our group doesn't have any 5 min thing or whatsoever. with that i decided to put away my script into my back pocket and damn did it have a huge impact. it boosted my confidence to heights which i never thought i could reach. hahah. it resulted in me being myself and just having much fun bringing my point across to the audience. i felt quite happy as i was able to see some sort of interaction with the audience. and i also managed to answer the questions presented by the examiner reasonably well. with that i end my pw on a quite a good note.