welcome to the real world rudy

As i spend more time with you, i finally realise and understand why we broke up. i wont blog it coz its personal like hell and it may hurt. only my best of friends will know and if you wanna know, ask me yourself. for now, back to my isolation. god bless.

crink to the crank

today's the first time that i actually lived to the name of my job as a mover. haha. i practically became a general worker for the day and did all the labour work such as moving all the heavy goods and stuff. i didnt peel a single carton at all coz today there were too many goods that came to the warehouse thus i was instructed to help out. it was fun! this is hundred times better than peeling cartons man. i get to have fun while working. yeah yeah.

minutes before midnight

its minutes before my supposedly anniversary. happy anniversary to you. even though your heart maybe with someone else now. it took me great pains to find out this date from you when i forgotten it so i hope its worth it. your phone's dead so i wont bother msging you. ya.

christmas fever

haiz. i cant believe that i actually spent 200+ dollars just on shopping on saturday. Lucky i didnt decide to buy a shoe or else i would have been broke. Thanks to my part time job, i can at least recoup some losses. but, i do feel like buying a pair of shoes. haha. this holiday have been a money sucking one for me. i would have been rich if i have saved all my money. lol. anyway, i still have christmas eve to shop. better earn as much as i can as i've got a long shopping list. hahha. for now, lets just relax and smoke weed everyday. LOL.

biatch.

well, i must say this few days i have been feeling lonely, down and out. i wont bother saying more coz it will all sound something like*&^%$# # $%^&* ^&%$## ***# #^%^&&*&@#$%^. ya.

wat the joke!

i cant believe it! i'm posted to millenia institute! but the funny thing is, i'm posted to the arts stream. haiz. i bet that i'm gonna be one of the few boys on that stream. :(
i told my mum that i must report in my sji uniform. she said she might have thrown the uniform away. haha. wat am i suppose to wear.

anyway, i've got gd news. i can work again!! :D
starting on monday. lol. last chance to earn money before school starts. yay.

shock to the socks

i'm now jobless!!!!!! for wat particular reason it is which i dont quite understand. haha.
can be that there's no more cartons for me to peel or i must have done something wrong. haiz. haven't even one month of work that means no more income!!! i just thought of doing some shopping but now i have to reconsider for better options. -_-

dizzy dazzle

my mind is in a daze. too many things have happened too quickly for me.
my work, my love life, my studies and my passion. these very issues make my head go round.
my work has been okay. the pay's good but the side effects is bluueks. the flesh in my nails have gone numb and its painful everytime i press my fingers against somthing. its money's worth i guess. i havent exactly figured out wat i'm going to pursue in my studies. poly or jc. i guess i'll just go the first month if i get in and see how. bodybuilding has always been my passion but now, with breakdancing in my life its hard to juggle this two activities. i guess i'll lessen my gym and more breakdancing. banzai!
i dont know whether i should ever trust girls again after wat they have done to me. i guess its just not worth giving my trust to them. i think i'm going to stay away from girls unless they approach me. *hint hint* for now. i still need time to recover from the aftermath of wats that happened to me. it all just occured to fast. i wish i could rewind back the time and enjoy the great moments again. i miss you.

laying the roots for the foundation

today is the start of a new era for me.
firstly, i'm gonna join a crew soon. maybe coz its not confirmed.
i got my role today. i'm going to be a style mover. that means i'm more of a dancer than braker. lol.
secondly, i'm not angry with youknowho anymore thus my mind is at ease now. :)

emancipation of rudy!!

filial piety

Guess whose back. me, myself and i.

i thought that it would be good to blog during the holidays to keep improving my english for watever i'm going to pursue later in life. Also, they are things that i need to share with people but i dont have the cheek to do it. thus, i blog as an alternative. PS: i use my own kind of grammer so pardon me if u can understand some words.

These past few days have been have been the most treacherous ones for me. I thought that by going out till late everyday i can run away from my problems that i'm facing. but, i was wrong. the problems come haunting me at night when i'm going sleep. thus, i've been having sleepless nights these past two weeks thinking about what i've done all this while and wat people have done towards me.i realise that whatever i do, people dont quite remember it except for the funny ones.
But in return they expect me to remember everything that they have done for me.
i ask my friends this very question and i get the same answer. wat an unfair world. like the saying goes " unfair go funfair la." haha.

Lets have a reality check. i'm 16 going 17, just turn single and confused. i have money but dont know wat to buy, ipod touch, psp slim, go shopping or erhem erhem? Please drop me your comments.